Over the past 6 years my friends and I have had
this running joke that God wouldn’t let me leave the state for more than 7 days
at a time. This spring He said yes to me for a trip to Italy. There is
something awesome about getting what we want, but what about the times we don’t
get what we want? God is still good. He still has a plan. He knows all things
past, all things current, and knows all things of the future. He knows all.
When we are told “no” we seem to revert back to our two year old selves and
throw a mini-tantrum. God has a plan that I do not yet understand.
Ok, maybe not everyone; but I know I do. This is a
problem, because in essence I am saying I think my plan is better than God’s.
God knows what is best for me (and you). He has a specific plan for us and some
things, sadly, just do not fit into His plan.
Although He has given me many yeses, there are
still so many things where I am getting a big fat no. Some of them I understand
and some of them I have been left in the dark. He is opening up some doors and
quickly closing others, all-the-while leaving some slightly cracked. Originally
I thought I was graduating in December; nope, there is more school to be done.
Thought I would be taking another short trip overseas for the summer; nope,
there is work to be done. Thought I would be doing this, that, or the other and
so many things have changed (but stayed the same) in such a short amount of
time. This time last year I had a completely different major with my current
goal and vision. Now I am studying in a different department, learning
completely different things and around drastically different people than
before. God has a plan.
Sometimes I feel like God leads us in certain
directions to test our faith and trust in Him. For instance, this year
everything seemed to be working out perfectly for me to go overseas for 10 days
with the university’s Study Abroad program. Then, things changed. God allowed
things to work out everything perfectly until He told me no. He has me
right where He wants me, and for whatever reason that is here … where I am
currently writing this from – my job. He has given me a job, in the most unique
of ways, and has allowed me to work with students from all over the world. He
has also given me some of my best friends through this job. His plan is sweet
and lined with good things (that doesn’t mean we always get what we want or
that things are always going to be hunky-dorey either).
I don’t always get what I want. I didn’t marry
that guy or get to date that other one I “liked sooo much”. If I did, my life
would look quite different. I didn’t get to graduate within 4 years of starting
college. If I would have, I wouldn’t be working here and most likely not even
have the job I have now. I didn’t get to leave the country every time I wanted
to or take the trips I wanted to take. If I would have, I would be in much more
debt (let’s be serious, travelling is expensive – don’t let that stop… please
travel! So much out there is just waiting to be seen). I didn’t get that job I
applied for in Hawaii. There are so many things I have been told “no” on, but
there are so many good things that have happened because I was told “no”.
God’s plan is so much better than my own and I
miss that at times. When I am turned down for things it doesn’t mean I need to
stop trying, it means I need to find where I should be trying. My efforts are
not wasted, they are learning opportunities for what is to come in life. Our
parents, grandparents, and elders didn’t become wise overnight. No! They lived,
they learned, they were told no and had to figure things out. Don’t give up on
God when you don’t get your way, ask where you missed the turn or where to go
next. Sometimes our “GPS” needs to recalculate.
Trust God’s plan even when you don’t understand.
That is something I have been trying to learn over the past 6 (almost 7 …)
years. We have to surrender our own plans for the plans of the One who knows better.
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