31 day March - Day 6

Day-6

What's new today?
Today I quit, gave up, or whatever you want to call it on the raw food thing. Yes, I am a quitter.

Also, I had a really bad day, but that is relative to what we each call bad. For me, it was a bad day. So I started writing out what was bothering me or why it was bad and wrote out what could be done to fix it so I am not sulking.

How is this new?
I usually try not to give up on things, especially small things like changing my diet. However, everything seemed so ridiculously overwhelming today so I needed normal and decided to go back to normal. Also realized it probably means I have very little self-control when it comes to food and need to work on that. (Sadly means I may have self-control issues in other areas... like my alarm clock ... that need to be worked on).

When things seem to be bad I usually pray about them, this helped me organize out how to pray and what to pray about specifically. It really reminded me I am not in control, God is the ultimate controller of the universe.

Why this?
Comfort food, when having a bad day comfort food really does comfort. Like I said, I have food issues to work through.

Well, it really helped me work through issues to write things down. Not going to lie, I had 1 page front and back, small print, of what was bothering me and what caused the issues along with how it could be fixed. With each thing I saw that although I made a mistake of not calling this person or not having this ready or out or done, I could not be in control of how others handled the situation. My responsibility is myself. My actions today were far from where they should be, but like I said I saw a lot of things in my life where I had to surrender not being in control. He knew what was going to happen before I ever made the mistakes.

Is this something that will be continued?
Quitting, I hope not. I don't want to be a quitter unless I am quitting bad habits. Not sure what habits I have that are "bad" but there are so many things in my life that need to be worked on, like most people.

Yes, this really seemed to help today. It is also now in my journal so I can look back in a year or so and see how juvenile my "problems" were. :)  This also showed me I don't need to beat myself up as much as I do, things can be worked out and dealt with and I just need to sit down and work through them. Beating myself up will get me no where except more upset.

Are there any negatives to this?
Quitting, heck yes there are... Please don't make me tell you why. I hope you know why quitting has negatives.

Not really, well unless I lose my journal and it ends up in the wrong hands. Then I might be having some interesting conversations. However, it helped me see that each situation was something that could be avoided (well in most cases) and what I could do in the future to avoid those.



God has really been good to me and has begun showing me more of Him through this month. Super thankful for my friends who have encouraged me lately (even today ...). God has truly blessed me with great friends. - Random add on, this is true but I am truly grateful.